Sometimes you have to let yourself fall to pieces so you can put yourself back together again in a new way. A way that makes sense or a way that fits better with now. It is painful but you know that pain is totally necessary.
And that pain; you need to embrace it. It’s ok to sit alone and weep, sob loud body wrenching sobs, letting tears and snot rundown your face until you are nothing put a puddle on the floor’ weak, completely drained and yet renewed. It’s ok.
Then you can look at all those pieces fallen before you and slowly, one at a time, put them in their new slots.
Life isn’t supposed to be straight forward if you live it, really live it. Life is based on chaos,